Warm Rays of the Sun

We finally got a break from the rain and I am venturing out in the yard more often.  The wife has so many projects and I will be busy for quite sometime.  It was  pretty nice to cut the grass for the second time this year.  I took stock of all the flowers and trees.  Regretfully I mowed down. OT OH !  I do hope they will spring back up.

I love to just sit and soak up the sun and enjoy being outside.  I know my dawgs like it too and they gracefully keep me company.  They make sure I acknowledge their presence with nudges and licks.  I really love them and they do me.  I don't know why but I really need them around.  I don't think I could stand to be without them.

Picked up a couple of Dogwood trees to plant, a white one and a pink one.  I aerated the yard and put out some lime for the grass.  I have a few bare spots that just do not want to grow grass.  I look back to when we moved here in 2006 and we have come a long ways.

where am I?

All my life I have been many places.  Some have been ok.....others not. Some have been so good I could have stayed forever.  I am in WV today.  It's nice here.  We have been having quite a spot of rain.  I was able to go walking yesterday and that was very enjoyable to me.

The problem with having two houses is you have twice the work and expenses.  We need some repair work to be done and someone is coming to give us an estimate this weekend. I need to get some yard work done for sure.  The winter leaves her calling card every year.

The lakes and ponds are looking great and calling me to come and fish. That is both fun and relaxing.  I have never been very good using artificial bait.  I stick to worms, crickets and minnows.  Liver for Catfish.

Next month I am going to visit Mom's for Mother's Day.  I always enjoy going to SC for a visit.  It's great to see my sisters and kin.  June is Uncle Gene's birthday so we will be traveling to Fayetteville where I spent my early years before moving to Tennessee.

I joined the Army at 17 and that's a story of my travels for another time.

Is it Spring Yet ?

I sure am looking forward to spring.  I have had enough cold and I am looking forward to days when you can go out and feel the warmth of the sun.  I think it makes you feel better to get out and enjoy the outside.  I hurt so much from arthritis that the cold just about kills me nowadays.

I rode down to Fayetteville in my Dodge Ram this past weekend to visit with my sister and my Aunt. It was a great visit and I hated to have to leave.  We talked and laughed and I found out ,ore about my family.  I crave that and I do enjoy my Aunt and Uncles company.

I want to go see Mom but I just can't set a date.  It seems like there is always a Dr's appointment or some other stumbling block in the way.  I will get down to see her soon.

To Catch Up

It has been awhile since I made an effort to post anything.  The weather has been so rough here in the Carolina's.  I remember one good day since New Years.  Seems like we would have some bad weather but there would always be a break in a couple of weeks at most where you could do a few things outside, but not this year.   haven't had the Harley out of the building in forever.  Battery is dead I am sure.  we did get a couple of days it was good enough to get out to the range for some target practice.  Wind was up both times and it was difficult shooting at 300 yards.

My wife is pretty sick as of late.  The cancer has been hard on her and the meds are hard on her too.  I know she really has been thru the wringer for a long time now.   It just seems like more appointments more tests and the outcome is not good for the long haul.  The cancer is terminal, metastasized and liable to show up anywhere.  Her Doc said she has a life expectancy of 2 to 3 years.  I am there fighting the fight along with her and we will be strong for one another.

I seem to think a lot before going to sleep.  My mind wanders on everything.  I try to remember my childhood and different parts of it.  I was thinking tonite about the furnace we had,  It was in the floor with a grate over it in the hallway.  The furnace burned oil and at night you could see the glow from the fire on the walls when the lights were off.  I don't remember how the settings on it probably because I wasn't allowed to mess with them.  It kept us warm in the winter and that's what counted I suppose.  I do remember the oil tank behind the bathroom window out back of the house.  we had a gas range and Mommas cooked every meal.  She was a great cook and I didn't appreciate it when I was kid but when I went off to the Army and came back home I did!

They say you cannot live in the past but it's nice to visit from time to time.  I miss the people of those times and wish I could still talk to them.  I miss my loved ones who are gone now and many friends who have gone before me.

I found an old friend and had a great time chatting on facebook.  He's a writer and has a book on Kindle.  I read just about all of it at one sitting as they used to say.  It's good and I hope he writes many more.  Best of luck my friend,

I need to go on to bed its about 230AM.  The good thing about retirement you can stay up as late as you want.  Take a nap during the day if you get tired.  Just an old lazy bones, that's me.

This picture is for my old friend who may enjoy it.  I took it at Ft Moultrie SC.

Tis the Season

We are in the home stretch for Christmas.  I always dread the season.  It's always a conflict on presents and how much to spend.  I seem to be a little blue round about now too.  I have to look back to Christmases past and remember them and who I spent them with.  I think about my family and friends who have passed on.  Who will be gone next Christmas at this time.  I have my sisters and Mom on my mind.  They are in SC.  We are spending Christmas in WV this year.  Winter is in the air and there is a chance of snow by Christmas.  I will like that.  The Grandkids will have gifts to open and I like to see their excitement.  Remember when we couldn't hardly wait til Christmas morning.  There ill be a grand feast.  I really will enjoy that.  I find myself thinking of the service members who are away from families and hope they will be reunited soon.  It is a real heartache to be away at Christmas time.  I wonder what the new year will hold.  I worry about our country in the future.  I hope good men will rise and lead us once again.  God bless all who read this and best wishes for a new year.

The Worst News You Can Get

My wife and I got the worst news we could get the other day from her doctors.  After running some test they have determined her cancer is back.  It has moved from her breast to her liver.  She will have to start chemo again.  She will have to have a new CT scan to see if the cancer has spread anywhere else.  The port she had before will have to be put back in so that the infusions can be done for the chemo.

The doctor didn't hold back and we are glad we didn't want her to.  She said best case she had 3 to 4 years.  She has multiple other health issues so maybe not that long.  I know she had been getting sicker since about May.  We had been telling her primary care doctor and that's when they ran the first tests that showed something was wrong.

My days are not as bright anymore.  I don't have much joy.  I just feel numb right now.  Don't know how to respond.  I just keep saying just one day at a time and all we have to do is today.  I keep busy as I can.  I do what I can to keep Sherry cheered up. Do the things that need to be done around the house.  Go out and shop.  I really don't feel like doing anything at all.

I don't like to think about how it would be without her.  What an empty place that would be.  I think how selfish am I to think about that.  I have Angie and the grand kids to think about, and my sons.  I don't get off the hook that easy.  Stiff upper lip as the Brits say.  Soldier on.

No one knows about tomorrow, we don't know what happens in the next minute, hour and so on.  I will do the best I can and pray to God because it is all His will, to be done on earth as in Heaven.  If Sherry does go before me  I do know she will go to Heaven, she is a true believer and has been an Angel here on Earth if anyone ever has been one.  Oh she has her humanly faults, sins as we all do don't get me wrong but there isn't a bad bone in her.  She will be waiting for me and we will rejoice with all the others who have gone on to that mansion not made by hands, holy in the heavens.

Is it Hot????

Here we are in the beginnings of summer.  I believe it has been summer for months already.  Hurricane Arthur is ripping up the coast ruining holiday plans for the beach-goers.  We are at home and that is fine for me.  Just plan on doing some grilling.  I enjoy being home more than most realize.

Sherry has been plagued with medical problems which the tests do not answer but leave more questions. She has a liver biopsy to find out if the lesion they found is cancerous.