I have been so down as of late. I attribute this to the loss of my wife last winter and things going on in my present situation. This time of the year is a difficult one. September is the time of much loss in my life. I think with the changing weather that is coming so does my spirits and feelings change also. I get sad and withdrawn.
I have been in a relationship which seems to ebb and flow. I was so mistaken as I entered into it and now I feel trapped somewhat. I feel I am bullied into making decisions that effect me monetarily and go against my beliefs. I often go along just to get along and feel I have compromised my values. I'm really at a loss as to how to proceed.
I do my best to stay busy. I train my body. I pray daily sometimes for hours it seems. I mostly ask for guidance and understanding. I also give thanks when God lifts the burdens that are weighing so heavily on me. I will continue to lift up my problems, turning them over to Him. His will be done.
I am attending classes with the local Sheriff's Dept and I will graduate next month. I have learned much. I have been made aware of much I did not know and feel I will be a better citizen once I complete my training. I am honored to be accepted and to participate in such a great program. Alamance County is truly blessed to have a Sheriff such as Terry Johnson.
In closing I will say. Thank you to who read these lines. I don't know if anyone does but if so thank you and leave a note so I know who you are. I love my country. I love my history and heritage and I love you my friends and family
